I dont mean depression or anxiety (this feels different), I mean feeling like you never really recharge, like youve never gotten time off ever. Which I think is partly due to a tendency to put literally 100% into something until you feel fried, move on to the next thing rinse repeat. Even “down time” doesnt really feel like down time because I am stuck between either boredom, working on yet another thing or thinking about things in general.
Yep. I’m a programmer and have felt like I’m in a perpetual state of burnout for years. The work doesn’t interest me much these days, and I haven’t done a side project in ages. Being laid off for 3 months didn’t help, nor does feeling like all of the work is pointless. Im basically a prisoner to my work because the alternative is going broke and becoming homeless. Ain’t capitalism grand??
You can change jobs. You can start an entirely diffetent career. I know a guy who quit teaching high school science because he was so burned out on it and became a plumber. It only took a year of training, and pays great.
If you get a job that doesn’t pay as much as programming, you can downsize your life. You don’t have to keep grinding at your current level to maintain a life that makes you miserable.